[ While there is no doubt in his mind that this is November’s reality, Barnaby is finding it a little hard to follow along with. Perhaps it’s because he can’t imagine completely putting emotion aside all the time. Of course, he can when he needs to on the field, but sometimes he too can completely succumb to his emotions. He remembers a time when his emotions completely dictated everything that he did; it had taken Barnaby some time to recover from that.

But how could he continue to put them aside every time? He was sure that it had its advantages, but surely that too only extended so far sometimes. While the way that November explained it made sense, he still couldn’t completely wrap his mind around the idea, particularly when he considered the exception that he’d already outlined to the Contractor. His reaction to that is worth it, though. ]

I suppose that to some extent, that kind of response has its advantages. Particularly on the field; I can see why you work so well on Red team.

[ Yes, it’s a compliment, and a sincere one at that. Sometimes Barnaby realises that, compared to some of the others, he’s out of place there. Not that it’s stopped him from carving a place for himself, making sure that no one forgets that he too belongs there now.

When November protests about Misaki, Barnaby finds himself trying his best to hide his amusement. ]

How exactly is it different? I'm curious to know.